One cant stay down forever, he has to stand up and keep going.. after falling so many times i should have already learn this lesson but everytime things keep getting worse and more complicated den the last..

Today I met an interesting patient, looking at his life made me wonder a little too.. Nice guys finish last? possible.. What does being nice and everything get you? The joy of helping someone.. I know that feeling.. Going out an extra limp for someone is not always the easiest thing to do but still, there is still a joy in doing that no matter the price.. Is one willing to sacrifice so much for so little in return?

A man such as myself does not know how to really help.. Being me I just listen.. Up till now I still do not know what does listening do to help although it does release the pressure a little which I hope actually happens but I wouldn't really know would I..

The old me was so much nicer.. So much more trusting.. So much more than what I currently am.. Yet in a sense the old me was so much more unreal, a individual such as what I once was cannot successfully function in the modern day society or any in that matter..

Sacrifice? In the past I always though I was very insincere as doing some stuff didn't mean much to me so as compared to though who took alot of effort just to do what I would do.. That is really a sacrifice in itself..

Now doing this and that seems so much more taxing than what it used to seem. Now at the other end of the spectrum it would seem that those who do good like it doesn't mean too much are really "wow"

Life is simple yet so messy, God I hate romance novels.. They can be so stupid sometimes..