Life like the layout

even after giving everything you got to grab a hold of what you want one must prepare himself for the landing and keep holding on tightly..

Just wondering....

This feeling.. I hate it..

So distracting..

Hope things will get better though..

So close yet so far.

Hurt and risk a scar or harden and risk never feeling again..

Life should be like a layout

Just go for it and give it all you got to catch what you want..

The more worried you are about the landing the more likely you will hurt yourself

Rant

Its been a super super long time since I've last posted anything on this blog..
Guess things have been pretty busy-ish lately and time just goes out the window.
Because with one look you can see
Things are ever changing and I cant seem to be able to keep track of them. I've changed, my friends changed, my family changed and even the surroundings have changed.
Everything..
I guess I'm just not the sort who is used to change.
Just one look..
I guess I just really dislike the person whom I am becoming. Don't wanna be like this. Wish I could go back to the way I used to be, a caring person.

So many things happen in life that through learning from my mistakes and taking the counter measures have turn up with new problems and through those new problems I miss the way I used to be.

From trying to understand everything things have never been so clear yet so hard to see. Black and white is becoming the shades of gray and the rainbow in the sky is becoming duller.

I just want to know why I feel the way I feel. Just wanna know why I feel this aching.

We all share the same sky yet not all of us can see the sun shining through the darkest cloud.

From the warmth came the burning and from the cold came the freezing. Wish I can find the place where there is a balance.

From my emotions I made stupid decisions and did stupid things.

From my mind I made the "smart" ones but the heart turn cold and solid.

I still feel, just not the way I used to..

I wish I could be the one who could picture the sun even through the darkest storm where even the lightning struck me down.

No point in brooding but sometimes its always better to let it out I once said..

Once upon a time..

The hero always gets the girl and has the happy endings..
But i'm anit no hero..
Love? Nah... nothing close to that.. My heart is running wild yet again.. too careless.. dun ever wanna make the same stupid mistake again.. should be slping now.. comp starts in 7 hrs and i must report in 6hrs.. crap.. hope i can make it thru tmr.. screwed up person me..

Bored people do dumb things

Tired people do dumb things

Dumb people do dumb things

So if your all of the above do you do dumb things?

Dumb + Dumb + Dumb = ?

hahahhaha.. just all of the above so i decided to type that..

Just wondering whats going to happen.. First time in a long time I'm actually doing something in this area.. I've kept wandering.. Kept looking but some how this don't feel right.. Maybe your just curious.. Maybe I'm just curious.. Life is pretty interesting but I'm a boring person.. So what do you get when a boring person lives an interesting life..

Wonder wonder why..

Can you believe this words, Maybe I'll try

Rant rant... hahahhaha..

Laughter can be so hollow and meaning less yet be a beautiful melody..
Eyes can shine so bright and filled with promise yet so dark and empty..

I'm once a again wondering..

Rest.. Maybe that's all I need..

Why am I here? Why did he put me here? All these problems, theres gotta be a reason.. I'm always seeking..

Look left look right.. Up down left right.. Sight and perceptions.. What are all of these?

Seeing through infinity is not something a person can see..

God's angle.. The unattainable..

Wonder why I'm even bother to write.. I can keep writing all this rubbish.. The subcon mind is so mysterious..

Id Ego SuperEgo
Devil - me - Angel

Maybe this is just another self-defense for anxiety? Possible..

I can keep typing on forever but here I am still wondering what am I doing.. Sigh*