This is my december..

Yup.. haha.. now the bad songs keeps playing back into my head xD

december.. its the time for festive joys and celebration..

but i guess its just another year like this..

every year I fall back into it..

For the 5th time already.. im gonna die la after tis.. so tiring..

my heart just cant keep going like tis..

i guess u made the darkest and brightest parts of my heart..

that will never change..



oh i hate the feelings i left behind in the music..

all the dark and sad times.. i wanna be happy for real this time..

but i keep falling down at this point.. dont think it would be possible..

sometimes its so easy to smile yet so hard to....

im suppose 2 go slp now.. for like awhile ago.. guess i cant really slp till i get rid of tis... many slpless nights to come... soooo sad.... but i cant believe its happens every year.. man im a screwed up person...




at least I had fun these past few days =]

I'm a happy sad person?

I'm a paradox?

A contradiction?

A foolish wise men?

Who is wiser? The one who knows whats for the best yet does the worse or the ignorant?

Everybody sees in a different angle of life..
Some of these overlap, some are in totally different directions.

Perception..

I know I can be happy.. But I'm sad?
Happiness is a choice?
Love is a choice?

Joy to the world
Sleeping in heavenly peace
The angels did say

Lalalaaaa... The Christmas mood xD

I just guess its a different meaning for me..
Oh well.. I know the end of the road.. But I still walk it..
I guess I'm the biggest fool.. haha