This is my december..

Yup.. haha.. now the bad songs keeps playing back into my head xD

december.. its the time for festive joys and celebration..

but i guess its just another year like this..

every year I fall back into it..

For the 5th time already.. im gonna die la after tis.. so tiring..

my heart just cant keep going like tis..

i guess u made the darkest and brightest parts of my heart..

that will never change..



oh i hate the feelings i left behind in the music..

all the dark and sad times.. i wanna be happy for real this time..

but i keep falling down at this point.. dont think it would be possible..

sometimes its so easy to smile yet so hard to....

im suppose 2 go slp now.. for like awhile ago.. guess i cant really slp till i get rid of tis... many slpless nights to come... soooo sad.... but i cant believe its happens every year.. man im a screwed up person...




at least I had fun these past few days =]